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I Broke my Moderation Rules…
… And it turned out exactly as I expected it would. I’ve only added alcohol back into my life for just over a month and a half, but it didn’t take long for an old version of myself to resurface.
Man, I hate it when I am wrong. I thought the woman who enjoyed a late night out with multiple beers and a casino visit had dissipated, but I underestimated alcohol’s pull into extreme extroversion.
Now, for anyone who wants to say, “I told you so,” it would be better if you don’t. Shame is not a motivating factor for personal change in my world, so I am embracing last night’s lessons (an self-sabotage) with as much compassion as possible.
So here are my personal reflections as to how my evening became more saturated than anticipated and what I did not miss when I was alcohol-free.
Broken Rules
1. I did not eat much throughout the day.
2. I was too casual about how I wanted the night to look (ex. number of drinks, how late, plans after, etc.)
3. I did not listen to my gut when I knew I was tipsy already.
4. I listened to alcohol more than to myself. (“You won’t be hungover…” Lies!)
